As some of you may imagine, my name is not amsterdam. From the beginning I decided to use a pseudonym because I felt more comf...
Ok. I know I'm a bit missing. BUT I'M BACK BITCHES!
Lately I've lived a sea of new emotions, known new people and reviewing old friends. I am in a new phase, and don't fool yourself, I'm too happy.I decided to change my way of seeing life, after all, if something is not good, change has to start from US.
I was feeling bad a few months ago, and this was killing me. Killing the best part of me. Killing my personality and my way of dealing with my problems. Anyway, I wasn't well physically and emotionally. But then a friend told me "Please, don't take anything from the place stealthily, conquer new spaces." SURPRISE, BITCH!
I woke up to life instantly. I don't want to stay home when I could be having fun, just because they said it's not good for me. I don't want to pretend to like something when I don't. I don't want to continue hiding what I do or I don't make. I don't wanna live like this anymore. I want to be someone that I can be proud. I just wanna be me.
So yeah, I changed, for better (I hope), and I'm back. Let's live as if it were our last day. I'll be good, baby.
xoxo, Amsterdam
"That somewhere there is explanation for the lack of reason.
Be good, be a better person."
Stop being a jerk egocentric. The world doesn't revolve around you. Don't think any dirty look is someone thinking something badly about you, maybe they're just having a bad day. Don't hate someone just because other people also hate. And especially don't hate someone you do not know. Don't spread hate.
Come here, tell me who or what intoxicated
you with all this anger?
A girl who studied with me in high school used to spread hatred by some girls, and most people who hated these girls actually do not know them. And sorry, but I hate them for a few days too. For no reason. For years I was intoxicated by hatred that haunted me. But I woke up and saw that this doesn't worth it.
I learned to not judge people, especially if I don't know them. Anyone deserves to be treated badly, whatever the reason. So if you continue hating people just for hate, stop. This is all a waste of time.
Now let's talk about life. We are so accustomed to our good life that we just avoiding think about the others. Let's think outside the box. Let's spread the love and not hate. Spread the goodness and not badness. But mainly let's open our minds.
A girl who studied with me in high school used to spread hatred by some girls, and most people who hated these girls actually do not know them. And sorry, but I hate them for a few days too. For no reason. For years I was intoxicated by hatred that haunted me. But I woke up and saw that this doesn't worth it.
I learned to not judge people, especially if I don't know them. Anyone deserves to be treated badly, whatever the reason. So if you continue hating people just for hate, stop. This is all a waste of time.
Now let's talk about life. We are so accustomed to our good life that we just avoiding think about the others. Let's think outside the box. Let's spread the love and not hate. Spread the goodness and not badness. But mainly let's open our minds.
xoxo, Amsterdam
"That somewhere there is explanation for the lack of reason. Be good, be a better person." Stop being a jerk e...
Hello hello, oh hello.
There is so long that we do not talk, how are you? I hope you are well.
I always said and repeated - a thousand times - to myself that I didn't have to like someone to feel full, to feel happy or peaceful. But then I met you, and you changed all my world. Changed everything, including me. And no, this isn't a bad thing, at least to me, this is a good thing. I learned to love the person that I become when I am with you.
Some crazy way I was falling for you gradually. I knew as soon as I met you I could be myself always, even if this "I" were a sucker. (And 90% of me is a sucker, but okay).
I'm not here to tell you how much I like you or as you are. I am here to thank you. Thank you for not treating me like a fragile girl, thank you for caring, thank you for making me talk when something was wrong, even not wanting. Thank you for liking me as I am. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
I hate people that don't care with another, and you are so different. You really care - or pretends to care very well -, I will miss you so much. But go, go away while there is time.
I don't care how complicated this gets, I still want you.
When you get back, I will be here.
xoxo, Amsterdam
Hello hello, oh hello. There is so long that we do not talk, how are you? I hope you are well. I always said and r...
"A part of me agrees to be happy without the party lost, however."
It's sad to say we move away from each other. You changed, so do I. But I still like you, trust me, like you a lot. A few weeks ago you returned from a trip in Europe, I was happy for you, I was excited. But now, I don't know nothing anymore, what did I do wrong?
But it is not time to regret, let's move on. Things happen, and we just need to get used to it.
I was three days feeling bad because I did not know what I had done wrong, but then you finally tell me why you was so weird, you will go away. You said that you turned away because you didn't know how to tell me that you will switch to the other side of the world, you didn't want to hurt me. And you didn't.
Yes, I will be a little sad, I really will miss you, but it's your life. I born to be free, and I cannot prevent anyone from being free also. If I had the chance to go away, I would. I am from the world, I am free. And I know you is too.
I imagine it has been hard to find a way to tell me without hurting me, but stay calm. You're happy, so I am happy too.
Now the world is all yours, do whatever you want to do. Drink till you drop if necessary, have fun as much as possible, explore everything you can explore, just don't forget me. I will be here waiting for you.
xoxo, Amsterdam
" A part of me agrees to be happy without the party lost , however." It's sad to say we move away from each o...
"Words people, words. There are meaningful words, there are pointless words, and then, there are words that hurt."
I was watching All About Steve, and there is nothing at this movie that I don't love, if I could tell something important about love, probably I would say exactly everything that this movie says. But I'm not here to talk about this movie or tell you some spoilers (and if you've never watched, go watch now).
I'm here to talk about words. All the time we are talking and talking and most of the time, not saying anything. We say that everything is fine when it isn't. We say we don't care about anything, but we care. We say we want honesty, but we aren't honest. We say we want to go to a party when in fact we want to stay at home - or conversely -, we say things on impulse and this is a mistake.
They called me arrogant and fat bitch once, I was so angry that I spent months without talking to them. Bullshit. I should never have cared with it. Think what you say and how you speak with people. Words are only words, but it hurts.
Why is so hard tell the truth, say what you REALLY want to say? People tend to lie, perhaps unwittingly, their feelings. Forgive me sincerity, but I cannot apologize anymore.
There's nothing worse than say that you like someone, and lie it. If you don't feel, don't tell.
Why is so hard tell the truth, say what you REALLY want to say? People tend to lie, perhaps unwittingly, their feelings. Forgive me sincerity, but I cannot apologize anymore.
There's nothing worse than say that you like someone, and lie it. If you don't feel, don't tell.
xoxo, Amsterdam
"Words people, words. There are meaningful words, there are pointless words, and then, there are words that hurt." ...
Maybe I, indeed, be a completely lost in what is said about emotional games. I've always been adept of "I demonstrate yes, because I want it, so what?" and maybe, I'm also wrong. There is no beauty in simulating detachments, there is no beauty in ignore messages or simply let it go, why people continue with this shit?
I don't like to hamper or boycott me sentimentally, I like to be honest, I assume what I feel and I confront the consequences of the choices I make. But try to understand me. Admit that I like someone is the hardest thing of all to me, not because it is not reciprocal, which I hope will be, but because this is all very new to me. But at the same time it's so good demonstrate that you like someone, and makes this person feel special as you would like to feel.
So answer me, why keep doing these little games? I will never be able to understand how all these seduction tips so well sold worldwide, are able to take effect. If you do these little games, please stop. Call the person you like, and say outspoken that you want to stay with her and no one else.
My ex boyfriend used to ignore my messages, to see if I was more into him. No, I wasn't. This was one of the things that made me pull away from him. So dont want an egocentric jerk who just wants attention and is not reciprocal with you. You deserve more than that.
If love must be hidden, then is not you who is not prepared for the world, is the world that it isn't prepared for you.
xoxo, Amsterdam
Maybe I, indeed, be a completely lost in what is said about emotional games. I've always been adept of "I demonstrate ye...
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